Always Growing

Time after time, day after day, I have to remind myself that God is not done working and changing me. I struggle through one test and think," Yah baby! The rest is just smooth sailing!!" Not!! Disappointedly I hit my head against the massive Wall'o'Faults that seems to loom up before me when I'm feeling low. Day by day I learn that what seems terrible to me now, later I will look back and see how much it has improved me. I will be thankful that my Heavenly Father cares enough to better me by sending trials. Though I struggle to see His masterplan through my human eyes, I know that the biggest thing I am learning, and will continue to learn, is trust. If I were to tell of all the things I have grown in there would also be a circumstance connected to each of them, that without, I would have gone nowhere. I have reached a place where I can sincerely thank my Jesus for that things that stretch me and make me come out of my protective bubble. Meanwhile I struggle daily between my human self and my desire to live wholly surrenderd to the One who has, "... been tempted in every way, just as we are, yet was without sin." Hebrews 4:15-16